Saturday, March 31, 2007
A pic taken after going for a facial.
{ 6:33 PM }
CL got caught 
on camera by me.
Some of the sumptuous buffet spread in my department.
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Wednesday, March 28, 2007
{ 11:55 PM }
The First time.
Sweet Memories...
{ 11:37 PM }
Can anyone guess what's this?
Initially, my mom thought it was fireworks.
Incredible thoughts.
Anyway, it's a secret**
Well, first of all, all you need to do is to switch it on by pressing the button and watch the colour glows.
Secondly.....
{ 11:12 PM }
All it needs is just a magical touch from me, and the colour changes.
And lastly...
{ 11:00 PM }
Amazing!
{ 10:52 PM }
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
Beautiful sunrise.
View from my block.
{ 11:28 PM }
Trying to concentrate...
But the thought of something makes me smile**
{ 11:24 PM }
Monday, March 26, 2007
In a fairly good mood today. Got a ride home from my coursemate and reached home much earlier than i expected. 15mins or so. The journey was quite a smooth one and my friend was driving at 100km/hr. Was sleeping throughout the whole journey. (not exactly sleeping, just closing my eyes and allowing it to have some rest)
When i finally opened my eyes, the car was just about to turn into my block. Quite surprised that he knew the place as this was only the second time he send me back. If not i will not have the chance to sleep, have to direct him. Passengers are so fortunate. -_-^
I've noticed that young drivers are so good at directions nowadays. From all the trips i got so far, they seemed to know my place so well. Never had i thought this way before. Looks like i have to familarise myself as well before i finally got my driving license. =p
By the way, today is one of my friend's birthday. When asked how romantic both him and his gf share together, he reminded me of something which is quite true. Unlike last time, we have most of the good things in life now. Material things can get easily. Why spend money on all these. Just like guys buying bouquet of flowers for their girlfriends on Valentines' day to make them happy. Well, perhaps it's true that girls will be happy to receive flowers, especially on Valentines' day but for me, it's the thought and feelings that counts. Watching tv or washing car together on special occasion can be very romantic too. It's the matter of being there for each other.
Well, I was glad that after so many attempts, i finally got a conclusion. That is, the more i try to figure out something, the more complicated it is. The more i try to salvage something, usually it turns out to disappoint me. Since it don't work after so many unsuccessful tries, i should try and let it flow naturally, who knows perhaps i could have a pleasant surprise? Things might not be as negative as what i have been thinking.
I just hope that everything will go on smoothly and that i can see some results after trying out.
Looking forward to my goal..
{ 11:48 PM }
Sunday, March 25, 2007
When G-d created Adam, at the moment Adam opened his eyes, what was his psychological profile? He had no Oedipus complex because he had no mother. He didn't have a birth trauma, because he wasn't born. He had no sibling rivalry.... What was this man like? What was the makeup of his psyche?
Interestingly, Adam didn't have a survival instinct either. That's why when G-d said, "The day you eat from this tree, you'll die," Adam wasn't impressed. "Oh, so I'll die." He had no survival instinct. So, what was going on in his mind?
Adam had a death wish. That was his psyche. He had a death wish because life felt so unnatural. In a sense, when G-d says, "From dust you are, and to dust you shall return," that described Adam's psyche. "I come from dust, I want to go back."
Back to what? Back to dust. Back to nothingness.
Men, to this day, have this complex. If you strip away the externalities, the trappings -- if you take away his car, and his money, and his blue suede shoes -- there's nothing, there's dust. Every man is terrified that in the end, he will have amounted to nothing, regardless of his accomplishments. He can be the wealthiest, most powerful and successful person, the most talented and the most admired. Deep down, inside he is afraid that it is all going to go away and he is going to remain a nothing, a non-entity, a zero.
Women don't have this. A woman does not have a fear or a suspicion of her own nothingness. It doesn't exist. Because Eve was not created from dust, she was created from Adam. So where a man is afraid of being reduced back to nothing, a woman, if you take away all her accomplishments, all her achievements, will be reduced to a man.
When you take away a woman's being, she doesn't become a nothing, she becomes him. She loses herself in him. When you take away a man's being, he doesn't lose himself in her, he becomes nothing.
That's why a man needs to accomplish. He must accomplish, because he needs to deny this nothingness. Whereas a woman doesn't need to accomplish in order to exist -- she needs to accomplish in order to be appreciated.
Because if you're a nothing and you have to become a something, then accomplishment is everything, and respect is what you need more than anything else. Respect means you are a something.
A woman, who is not afraid of becoming nothing, does not understand and can not tolerate when her somethingness is not appreciated. So what a woman needs more than anything else is appreciation.
The Talmud says that a man should honor his wife and be very careful with her feelings. A man should be careful of his wife's honor, because a woman is sensitive to injustice. This is not just an idle observation about women. At the core of a woman's being, it is the injustice that bothers her. She is being treated as if she was nothing, and that's not true. She is something, and that injustice hurts.
When a man is treated like nothing, it's not the injustice that hurts him -- it is the truth that hurts. He is nothing and he hates being reminded of it. His reaction is not as to an injustice, it is not a moral indignation, it's a personal hurt. Whereas with a woman, no matter how badly she is abused or devastated, it remains a moral injustice to her.
This is why there can be a woman who is abused for years in a relationship, and all the while she tells herself that she deserves it. A man cannot do that. He can not say, "I deserve it" because that's not the issue. The issue, to the man, is "am I or am I not." If you abuse me, then I am not and I can't take that. I can not be diminished to nothing and go on living. A woman, on the other hand, simply tells herself, "I deserve this, therefore it is not an injustice." In this way she can go on living.
This explains why men are aggressive. A man is desperate to be recognized as a something, and so he needs to prove himself, he needs to achieve, he needs to acquire. This need to acquire is an aggression. Whereas when a woman is determined to retain what is hers, to remain herself. No matter how intensely she pursues that, it is not aggression, because she's not out to acquire -- she is trying to preserve.
When the lion goes hunting, he's aggressive. When the lioness goes hunting, she's trying to sustain her family. Though she may be more violent than the male, it is not aggression -- it is maintenance. When you threaten a bear cub when its mother is around, you're in big trouble. You say, "Oh, this mother is aggressive." Yet she's not, she's totally passive. If you don't present a threat she's fine, she's not out to get you. She doesn't want anything you have. She wants to maintain what she has and that she'll do ferociously. But that's maintaining, so it's not aggression.
In contrast, the male lion wants what you have, and he's going to get it. So even if he does it nicely, even if he does it gently, it's aggression. Even a very subtle and polite seduction is aggression, because you are trying to get what isn't yours. You are out to get something, you're acquiring, you are a predator. You can be a nice predator, but that, too, is aggressive.
Men are called aggressive because they need something they don't have. Women are called passive, because they don't necessarily want what they don't have; they like what they do have. We are not talking about physical possessions, rather psychological, the psyche.
This helps us to understand the blessings men and women make before the Morning Prayer.
A man says, "Thank You for not making me a woman." A man is grateful for what he is not. Because he can't make a positive statement, he can't say, Thank You for what I am. He's never sure he is anything.
A woman says, "Thank You for making me as You want me to be." A woman can make a positive statement about herself, because she knows that she is. She is grateful for what she is.
{ 1:14 PM }
Sunday, March 18, 2007
Picturing us having our wedding photos taken at the most romantic place...
Enjoying every moment of our honeymoon in our own world...
How beautiful it can be... SO NICE~
I wished i could change your mind
So that all things can be beautiful again
I know what's on your mind
Which makes it impossible to make you mine
But i also understand that
It is your decision at the point in time
By the time i've changed
you might not be by my side
Because of this
I shouldn't waste anymore time
The hardship that u've been thru is an inspiration to me
This shows that i am not alone
The times and emotions spent
When i looked into your eyes
You truly mesmerise me
I began to wonder
Is there anyone else who looks as good as u
Someone who shows true concern for me
Who wants the best for me
All these i will never forget
And because of this
I have a reason to say
You will be my dearest forever
Simply because no one can ever replace you in my heart
Till my last breath...
Can't remember
What made me fall in love with you
Yet in my eyes, you always look so beautiful
When you are soundly asleep.
With this gentle weather that surrounds
I am willing to follow the wind and quietly fly away.
Despite our embrace
It still doesn't mean that I understand you fully
So I decide to give up and try accepting myself again.
I made a mistake in the past
But I shall not be angry
For Hope is what I want
Written on my face. If I were to keep memories of you.
Or really I should no longer hold on tightly to them, I am already used to being alone
Without the hurt or the pain. No matter how, in the past, everything is so sweet...
In half a day, you will surely forget everything.
If I were to wait for you, or really there is no need to, i will still linger behind on this world
and forge ahead.
Whether there is logic or no in love
Even if we are separated by a thousand miles
No one can predict
That if we next meet
I will fall in love with you again
These are truly something that describe my feelings when thoughts choose to remain silent in my mind...
{ 3:54 PM }
Saturday, March 10, 2007
Something interesting to share. I was so impressed by the German neuroscientists.
Good news to those who want to learn things might do better by literally stoppping to smell the roses, according to German researchers.
They have found that the rose scent can be used to reactivate new knowledge in the brains of people while they sleep, enabling them to remember better this information later.
The German neuroscientists exposed groups of students to bursts of rose scent as they played a memory game in which they had to match pairs of cards on a computer.
Guess what. Those who received the rose scent outperformed others by 15% when they replicated the exercise the following day, according to the study.
Although the presence of the scent was important, the stage of sleep at which it was administered was crucial too, the researchers said.
They continued to explain that the brain is thought to process newly acquired facts, figures and locations most efficiently in deep sleep. These so-called slow-wave periods usually occur within the first 20 minutes or so after a person head meets the pillow and may last an hour or longer, then recur once or a few times later in the night.
Now i know when i should study for my exams. Heh. Guys, pls expose me to burst of rose scent at the appropriate time during my sleep.
Mood: Amazed.
{ 11:00 PM }
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
The slope is getting steeper. No amount of words can describe my feelings right now. If i could write my life story into a book, then this would be the part that would attract the reader's attention, i guess.
Once upon a time my heart died,
i felt sad.
I thought i would stop breathing,
and my heart would never beat again.
But that wasn't the case at all...
Over time, i finally understood,
what i gained,
and what i lost.
Dreams are only dreams until action is taken.
Cherish a dream in your heart,
and you'll glow and grow.
Let's chase away the blues!
Go on a shopping spree?
Get my hair done by a top-notch stylist?
Or savour some abalone?
Hmm, i think i will take a bubble bath. Shiok~
There are many ways to cheer myself up.
Scars from the past...
I was not the first one to be informed of an important incident which i will remember it vividly because if this event come true, i would regret for the rest of my life.
Things hiding from me..
But i was the one to blame...
He was someone very nice...
Someone very unique...
Someone that would make me laugh, not only because he looked cute, but because he laughs at the silliest joke. (too bad he complained that 99.9% of the time i make him frown)
He was the only one i would call king and bow to (what about Prince Charming?)
Unfortuately, one day something happened.
I thought i saw something.
Tears rolled down my cheeks.
Then the more i think of it, the more i wanna see it again.
The more i see, the more upset i become.
The more upset i become, my brain has to work extra hard to generate more cells to make it "active" in the hope to calm me down.
Yes, and my heartbeat has slowed down.
How i wish if your absence can made me stronger.
I know one day i won't see you again.
Even if i do, everyone will be in a different mood.
Suddenly i can sense the impending danger ahead.
I can finally feel the seriousness simply because,
it means forever.
I knew u wouldn't want to see me this way,
you would be happy if i can be more focus.
Even if i do, everything on the outer are as beautiful as what u always wanted,
but we can never turn back time.
Lord, please enlighten me. I need your help and guidance as much as i would like to help myself.
By the way, did anyone of you feel the tremors of the earthquake in Singapore today? My whole house was so shaky, according to my mum. Too bad, i wasn't at home to experience it. lol.
{ 11:16 PM }
on camera by me.
All it needs is just a magical touch from me, and the colour changes.
