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Thursday, September 14, 2006

Many people search endlessly for their "Person of List" because they believe that he or she is someone special who deserves the best. But the sad fact is that virtually every single person believes this and is therefore searching hard for a mate who meets all his/her criteria.

However, each of us must reach a private decision that we are all, ordinary, or at least less than perfect and that looking for the perfect partner can be an exercise in futility. Why not settle for an "Almost", a person who is missing a few of what we think to be the essentials. Be realistic. Very few people, indeed, can find his Dream Girl or Prince Charming as we know they only exist in fairy tales.

{ 11:55 PM }

Thursday, September 07, 2006

Happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday to Jesslyn, happy birthday to me.
LAMER.

Today is my birthday.
The very first time that i did not "celebrate" in my 23 years on earth.
Apparently, it was also the first time i was sick on my birthday.
Elevated temperature of 37.8celsius.
Last checked was 5 hours ago.
Wonder what is the reading now.
Feeling cold and clammy.
Suddenly, so "quiet" on my birthday.
Perhaps everyone were busy.
Including myself.
However, i am touched that i've received a number of greetings from friends.
Thanks for remembering my birthday.
Huggz*

This year is not a good year for me. Maybe one of the worst.
Alot of things happenned concurrently or should i say, still happening now.
Despite all that, i try to remain positive as much as i can.
During this one year, i have to admit that i have let some of my friends down.. those who care.. i am so sorry.

A year older now.
Have been procrastinating on things which can be done easily. Too bad we are not living in a fantasy world, where you can "revive" or "restart" anytime.
Not until i've reach the same level of consensus as those who are "productive", i might not realize this "sinful" mistake i've done to myself.

I sincerely hope from today onwards, no more excuses from me.
A brand new start.
Sometimes i still do not understand what's holding me back from doing things which can be done today.
What if i have no tomorrow?

In case i give myself a dozen of excuses again, i shall bear this in mind
Having said so much, still, we have to agree thats human nature. At least for those of u who are reading my blog, i hope you agree.
If not, i will belong to the outliers category.

At this point* while i am typing my blog, my colleague came up and told me another colleague's grandma passed away...
What is happening nowadays.
I am really dread about all this.
Life is so transient and fragile.
This brings me back to what i have mentioned few mins ago..

Thats why i don't like to hate. I do not want to carry such "burden" in me. So much effort it takes to hate.

Some people are nasty. Still, they are being appreciated in a way or another.
Forgive and forget is the best policy.
Wonderful people give and take.
But these people suffer in life.
Feel sad for them. But how many can we find?
Conversely, aggressive or nasty people are easier to find. Being appreciated more as well.
We tend to take for granted for things that are easily achieved.
Are nice people easy to find? I dunch know.
Maybe i should just tell myself this: Being nice is not going to work.

The keyword is BALANCE.

Being nice is only allowing yourself one step towards getting bullied.
Sometimes. just can't help being nice to those who are nice to me.
Just think they deserve it.
O well, I should have been more "aggressive" or at least more "sporadic" in my niceness? In this way, perhaps the outcome will be different.........

If niceness is a strength and aggressiveness is an attribute, then i rather not be the former.

Just wait and observe.

Meanwhile, let's just keep our fingers crossed. *shucks*

{ 11:48 AM }