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Friday, December 30, 2005

Just "managed" to reach home finally, haha. Tomorrow will be a meaningful day to remember as it will be the last day of 2005. Hope this day will be the most wonderful day in 2005 for me filled with wonderful moments. As for my beloved friends and to those who are reading my blog now, i sincerely hope you all have enjoyed 2005.. though pain and sorrows u might have, im sure there are happy moments too.. all is part and parcel of life.. it is a balanced.
Anyway i would like to share abit of some incidents that happened recently ever since i started working in this new company. Just to emphasize that im consider quite new in the working society as i have just graduated this year in May 2005. Worked in AIA Alexandra from June-September and October-now(KIV Pending,lol) in my current company... still consider a newbie. Ever since i started working, i have slowly begin to "see" more of people's behaviour and way of doing or handling things. It is really an eye opener for me as before that, i really do not have a taste of so-called having a full time job tho there's bits and pieces here and there.. like giving tuition when i was 18 years old.. sales.. admin clerk.. so on and so forth.. Hmm what i would like to say is, everyone has their way of doing things which we can't control but as we all agrees, sometimes their way of doing things affect us in some ways.. be it indirectly or directly. All these are part of working life. However, i really can't understand why, as working adults, no matter where u work, or what position u hold, you should uphold urself and be professional. This give others a good impression of yourself and you will feel good too. Why, for goodness sake, make oneself so lowly. Make sense? Age is not an issue. One can be 21, yet she or he behave more mature than a 31. Why. Its all in the mind. No one controls u. You control urself. No one can change u except urself. I can always remind u but yet cant go thru ur mind which is deem useless. Select a strategy that really works for u. Everyone needs different kinda method for it to be effective. How? Read more EQ books to find out. I always believe in constant learning. In fact everyone is learning, no matter how old u are. I believe that the older u are, the more u "should see" by right. But it proves me wrong sometimes somehow. Why?
I am considered the youngest in my office, (brushing aside two 18 yrs old gals who are working part time as admin staff), the rest are either aunties, uncles or at least late 20s or 30s. There was this man or rather i should say not only him, quite alot who still behave like "kids".. the way they present themselves, their gestures, the way they talk on the phone to their clients proves me all. They are either not sincere with their words, trying to bluff their way out in order to earn commission.. i dun respect them at all. No way. They are so-not professional, be it talking or chatting with colleagues.. of course i must say there are well-behaved ones too.. imagine a full-grown adult taking ur things on ur desk and hides it somewhere, trying to be funny.. wanna see how u panic which makes their day, and lastly return to you or put it somewhere and trying to end the game after acting blur. Familiar? Come on, grow up and be sensible. Thought all these happen in secondary schools day, at least. Even in my tertiary days, i dun do that. Hello, working adults leh, oh my gosh. I find it funny if someone tells me this but i find it angry when that happens to me. Pls lor, its not nice to laff right? When i am busy, i have no time for all that. Even if i am not, i would find it really silly of them. Imagine two adults playing over a toy cockroach and trying to put on me after my third warning. Imagine playing with my chair, tossing round and round when i stood up. Imagine patting on ur left shoulder while sitting on ur right and when u turn around, he's pretending to do his stuffs. I can stil take it if he or she is young but defintely not for a over 40 year old adult. I am so pissed off and find it so weird. However today which is just now, i stood out for my rights and warned them. Must be firm and assertive in handling this kinda people. My colleagues which have been here longer, says that some are like that so must beware.. maybe i am new and young so they take advantage. Be it young or what, i think everyone needs to be respected at least for who they are but of course u have to behave in a well manner in order to earn "more" respect. Ha. He can be angry, for all i care, but i hope he had learnt a lesson although i dun think he will. Whether he will or not is none of my business as long as he dun affects me again. Actually i can joke with friends who are closer to me because it makes the topic interesting with abit of jokes here and there sometimes and of cuz it can enhance the whole conversation throughout but definitely not this kinda lame jokes or tricks. Of course life would be so boring if u are so serious all the time. The trick is to joke at the right time, right venue with the right "toppings" and hopefully to the right person because not everyone may find it entertaining or some people can't take jokes, even minor ones. I can be very funny if i want too but when it comes to work, i wanna get serious and back to business esp when u are busy, u feel really fed up or pissed off with all these actions. I find myself going back to my teenages years after meddling with them so much. I hope theres someone out there who are mature enough to share with me more etc so that i can "grow" according to my age and not grown and full stop.

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Thursday, December 29, 2005

Fatigue. Continuous Late nights. Look at my poor eyes.

{ 9:57 PM }

hihi..
in office now.. am so boring so decide to post something.. be prepared that it will be a lame one as im quite tired today.. sleep at 4.30am yest.. toss n turn in bed.. too many things on my mind... hmm well haha .. anyway 2 more days to bid 2005 bye~ it has been a marathon for me throughout.. i learnt alot and grown alot too.. i learn to understand life and people. I have matured. No longer the little girl liao.. haha.. this is a rubbish post la.. dunno what im toking also.. jus wanna add a new post into my boring blog.. haha... but what i m saying now is what im thinking at the point of texting. ha.

{ 12:27 PM }

Thursday, December 22, 2005

An interesting title. Experience Vs Experienced. Haha. "Experience" as in in our everyday lives, we will experience and come across so many different kinds of people .. be it the domineering ones, the hard-to-let-go ones, the bossy ones, the act pity ones, the kaypo ones, the hypocrites, the eavesdroppers, the backstabbers, and even the resourceful ones and so on, till we have became so "Experienced" in handling different people with different characteristics using different methods. We have seen so much. Unfortuately, there will be more. Having said that, i think everyone has their fair share of encounters. Today just encounter one. In fact, everyday in office i have encounter so much but today was abit special. Happened outside office. Haha. Anyway, think i will not share it here but i will be more wary in my actions in future cuz every action leads to at least one consequence for everyone.
Anyway in office was abit.. erm how should i put it.. happy and unhappy la but i think thats part and parcel of working life.. no matter where u work there are bound to be daily hassles. The point is u muz know how to handle it. But how to handle? Simple. Learn through ur daily experience everyday. The more you experience, the more you learn and the more people u encounter in ur life, the more you are experienced. Once u reach that stage, you are the winner. But one caution. Don't expect things to go ur way always.. Like our fingers, not all are equal. Bound to have ups and downs in life. As the saying goes..'you cannot please everyone' so dun ever expect 'everyone to please u'.. make sense la..
Sometimes it really set me to think what do i want in life. i really want to settle down, travel to beautiful places, try all the nice food that this world has, take beautiful pictures of beatuiful places, my friends, myself etc,.. everyone wants to enjoy, who don't? Ha sadly to say if u wanna enjoy, u muz work. Some ppl work for the sake of money. But to me, i work for the sake of enjoying the process. To me, enjoyment is very important. It comes on top of money. Money can't buy love or any other things to me. I do everything by feelings. I do what my heart tells me to do. If i really like something, i will go my way to achieve it. Thats why sometimes i overspent due to the sudden impulse i carried in me. To me, i think that do something that u feel happy. In life, do not try to play hard-to-get, at the end of the day, u get nothing out of it but jus regrets. I tried to enjoy every process my life brings me, even for jus a second. O ya today i bought 12 magnetic calendars although i didnt really use it. Jus because it looks cute (like me, hahaha)
After having whining so much, my point is i muz be clear of what i want .. ahem which i am still thinking.. i want to get a job which can satisfy me, gives me that momentum and 'drive' to go to work the moment i open my eyes in the morning. Put aside money, everything is still wonderful. I want someone to love and care for me as much as i love and care for him. I want someone who trust me as much as i trust him. Once we have the trust in each other, we can save many unnecessary quarrels and spend more quality time together. I don't want the looks, i jus want the feelings. I want my guy to love me for who i am and not because of external factors. I don't want him to doubt me and i won't want myself to doubt him too. Given our trust we have in each other, i believe we can do it.
Right now, i dun want to think too much. My mind needs relaxation. Be it career, lovelife, i will go by my feelings. Shun4 Qi2 Zi4 Rang2 is the best.
Tomorrow go back office have to search for house again. i dun get to earn the commission for ur information.
Lastly, life is nothing but a gamble. Every step u take leads to a consequence. Although u wun know whether are u the winner or loser till u try. But liek what i've said, go by ur feelings is the best. Do what makes u happy and comfortable. That's happiness. I believe that ahead of me, there will be happiness too. Lets Lalalala~ Advanced Merry Xmas Everyone! Ciao~

{ 10:38 PM }

Ladies please. Haha me in ladies lalala~

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Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Hi to all, just remembered that i still have an existing blog so came over to say "Hi" since now i am still consider free.. hee..
Well, am working currently.. decide to take up the advanced diploma in business studies next year in April @ PSB Academy since its jus @ my office downstairs so still consider convenient and save alot of hassles.. after completing the course which will take around 15 months, i will go and look for a better paid cum benefits job with better prospects cum challenge. Haha. Hopefully by then, i can save and go for the bachelor of Science..
Tomorro have to replenish those stupid forms in office again.. cuz nowadays so many recruitments.. my pair of hands also cannot handle haha..
Anyway what to do.. don't like also muz do.. we all work because of money.. if not who will work. but there r some who work for their interest tho. i dun mind getting a job of my interest and getting underpaid. haha.
Anyway Xmas is coming.. yet no plans yet.. hmm anw xi guan jiu hai hao ba.. haha..
I have learnt to take one step at a time.. i look forward to my future but yet theres no hurry.. everything let nature takes its course.
Sometimes when i am free, i will start to think abt many many things.. abt myself, my life, my friends and even people aorund me. Sometimes i wonder why do we oni think of ourselves and neglect the feelings of others? Why cant we accomodate instead of compromise.. Well, maybe god create humans of different personalities so as to make this world more interesting or shall i say, so as to let us see different people with different personalities? Hmm time really flies fast.. 1 year is gone again.. i really hope to accomplish at least something.. at least i can tell myself i can do it but always lack of momentum.. Always jus say say only..
Sometimes i feel lonely but what to do.. life still have to go on.. i dun do something for the sake of doing actually.. is the process thats more important..
I always believed tat a man's charisma lies not in his looks but how he makes u feel.. in fact i dun fall for guys considered conventionally good looking. but i have 1 condition for my Mr Right. I have to love him alot. Its ez to tell when im in love. I'm all sparkly-eyed and i walk like im floating. Even having a dinner at a coffee shop with him makes me feel im the happiest person in the world. How will i know if my bf is THE ONE? When i worry him as i would a family member, when i fear i might lose him and not see him again tats when im in love. BUT i also believe in FATE. That person meant for u is predestined. You cant run away form it. Love keeps me motivated and it gives me strength. I love to be loved, however i need to find the RIGHT one to fall in love with.

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Sunday, December 18, 2005